Back in the day in the early nineties, I use to be the queen of getting revenge and sadly to say I still struggle with that from time to time but it’s not as bad as it use to be. God gave me a revelation concerning a vindictive spirit that I would like to share with you because as a teacher I would never try to appear as being a strong woman who has overcame everything and have it all together because I don’t. And I feel that if preachers, teachers, and evangelist would preach more about their own shortcomings and weaknesses and admit how they also struggle with certain things then more people would take heed to their messages and be glad to surrender to the kingdom of God because people are going through some things and they’re looking for somebody who’s gonna keep it real and who can relate to whatever they’re dealing with. So to every human being, I can relate to you because I myself am human; I’m not always in the best of moods, I’m not always happy, I’m not always encouraging, sometimes everybody get on my nerves, i don’t wanna be bothered, there are some folks I just don’t like and don’t care to be around them, there are days when I go to work and just wanna knock everybody out, and there are days when I just don’t wanna go to work period. Yes I feel that way sometimes being a born again believer baptized and filled with the Holy Spirit and those who can relate to being vindictive, if you were anything like me then I couldn’t rest if I didn’t pay somebody back for what they did to me, I couldn’t eat or sleep until I did something because it would linger on my mind for days and weeks, and I was always plotting. But when you take it upon yourself to pay a person back for what they’ve done to you then you’re opening a door to the spirit of pride and putting yourself in the place of God. Let me explain, in the book of Romans 12:19 it reads: Beloved do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, vengeance is mine, I will repay says the Lord. God is onipotent and there is nothing or no one hidden from his sight, for he sees and knows everything and he’s everywhere. He’s completely Holy, righteous, perfect, and the only one who has the right to repay and render the judgement to anyone it is due because of who he is. When we do it ourselves, we’re not giving place to wrath (God) and our pride sets in, because we’re putting God in the back seat and have the attitude that a person must pay immediately for what they’ve done to us and if we had the power to do so, we would strike them dead or do some serious damage. We’ll say: payback is a you know what so they don’t know who they’re messing with. We be more concerned about our feelings and our image and hate suffering from the embarrassment of what was done to us and then on top of that we have to deal with the whispering, gossip, and the jeering of those who heard about it and that drives us even more to the edge and we end up making a bigger mess of the situation that could lead to trouble and jail time. But one thing we must remember is that Satan was kicked out of heaven due to his pride and because he wanted to be worshiped instead of being the worshipper, and wanted to be in control by putting himself in God’s place and once again, whenever we take revenge we are doing the very same thing being puffed up with pride acting as if we’re sitting on the throne and wanting to be in control which is a dangerous thing because we are not God but he is, and we are not the judge but he is and told us to rather give place to wrath. (Him) Even Joseph could testify to my teaching because after his brothers did evil to him, this is what the scriptures says in Genesis 50:15-19: When Joseph brothers saw that their father was dead, they said, perhaps Joseph will hate us, and may actually repay us for all the evil which we did to him. So they sent messengers to Joseph, saying, thus you shall say to Joseph: I beg you, please forgive the trespasses of your brothers and their sin; for they did evil to you. Now, please forgive the trespass of the servants of the God of your father. And Joseph wept when they spoke to him. Then his brothers also went and fell down before his face, and they said, behold we are your servants. Joseph said to them, do not be afraid, for am I in the place of God? As you can see in the scriptures, Joseph knew within himself that he would’ve been putting himself in the place of God if he had repaid his brothers for what they had done but instead he remained humble in the end. But my favorite verse is verse number 20 when he said: You meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive. Sometimes people think they’re hurting you but in reality they’re doing you some good and helping you because whatever they’re dishing out then God can use it to strengthen you and make you better than what you are. I’ve been hurt, betrayed, heartbroken, lied on, cheated on, talked about, and I’ve also did it to others but the Lord used all of those things and worked it together for my good good by washing and cleansing me with his blood, to become a shining light, to teach his people and to be a living testimony. So give it all to God and let the Lord repay!!!!!!