Many of us who wake up every morning we wake up to a new mercy, new grace, and another day to get it right. Days and nights come and go, the months pass swiftly and before you know it, it’s the end of the year. We celebrate a new year and then afterwards everything returns back to normal and repeats itself all over again. But how many of us think about the what ifs? What if I die today then where will I spend eternity? Or what if I take my last breath then where will I go? Most of us don’t like to think about death and some don’t consider the thought of it but instead choose to gamble with their souls everyday, living as they please and feel that they only have one life to live and they’re going to live it however they want to which is true, you do only have one life to live but we also have one chance to get it right with the Lord. So many people are dying both young and old alike and I’m always seeing on social media people writing comforting words on the behalf of the dead such as: Rest in peace, rest in heaven, you’re in a better place now and don’t have to suffer anymore. But are they really resting in peace? Have they ceased from suffering? Are they really in heaven? Are they really in the presence of God? What kind of life did they live before they died? Hebrew 12:14 reads: Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no man will see the Lord. You may say he or she was a good person but being good is not enough, were they holy? It’s nice to think that everybody goes to heaven when they die but people are forgetting one thing, that God created a hell also and the Bible warns that those who live their life fulfilling the desires of the flesh, living outside the will of God and die in their sins will go to such a place. (Luke 16:19-31, Luke 13:22-30, Mark 9:42-48, Revelation 20:15) Some say that hell is the grave or hell is on earth but my response to that is this, you can think whatever you wanna think and believe whatever you wanna believe because hell isn’t going to stop existing just because you don’t believe in it. I’m neither going to test God or gamble with my soul to see whether or not it’s real because he said it, and therefore I believe. How can a loving God send people to hell? People often ask that question including my own Mother, but how can a holy and righteous God not punish sinners after sending his son to die for our sins to keep us from going to such a place? And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgement, so Christ was offered once to bear the sins of many. ( Hebrews 9:27) The devil is really deceiving people in these last days because he’s telling a lot of them to end their own lives in order to escape the hardships, the disappointments, the stress, even to escape consequences of an action, and they’re committing suicide thinking that’s the end of all of their misery and some are killing themselves and taking others with them. But what a great deception that is until they find themselves awaken in a place which is beyond our imagination, lifting up their eyes in hell and realizing they’re in a hopeless situation and completely separated from God forever. No one can help them, no one can save them, no one can deliver or pray them out of there, once you’re in you’re in, there is no coming back from the dead to get it right, mercy and grace is gone, and the cries and pleas are now reaching deaf ears. Behold, now is the accepted time; behold now is the day of salvation. ( 2 Corinthians 6:2) I don’t hear too many hell sermons anymore, and not that people should be beaten over the head constantly about it but people do need to be reminded of it. Ten years ago I was dating a guy who was a boot legged preacher, and the reason I call him a boot leg preacher is because he was one of those preachers who would go to church preaching sermons but wasn’t living right himself. He loved it when people greeted him as pastor and shaking his hand, and he would go to people houses to visit them putting on the image of a loving concerned pastor when really he was the blind leading the blind. We were sleeping together and he didn’t see anything wrong with it and had the nerve to tell me that he doesn’t preach hell sermons, but of course you’re not going to preach a hell sermon when you’re not living right. That very same night after he had taken me home, the Lord spoke to me in my living room and said: If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. Right then I knew where the Lord was going with that because it’s in his word: If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter into life maimed, rather than having two hands, to go to hell, into the fire that shall never be quenched where their worm does not die and the fire not quenched. (Mark 9:42-44) I would never want to get caught on fire on earth but to go to a place for eternity that was created for the devil and his angels, send chills throughout my body and the human mind cannot comprehend how horrific it really is. The next second is not promised to us and no one knows where death is but you should be ready and spiritually prepared when it comes. Where will you spend eternity? Your final destination?


Back in the day, in the early nineties, I use to be the queen of getting revenge and sadly to say I’m still dealing with that from time to time, but it’s not as bad as it use to be. God gave me a revelation concerning a vindictive spirit that I would like to share with you because as a teacher, I would never try to appear as being a strong woman who has overcame everything, and have it all together because I don’t. And I feel that if preachers, teachers, and evangelist would preach more about their own shortcomings and weaknesses, and admit how they also struggle with certain things, then more people would pay attention and take the message serious, being glad to surrender to the kingdom of God because people are going through things, and they’re looking for somebody who’s gonna keep it real and who can relate to whatever they’re dealing with. So to every human being, I can relate to you because I myself am human; I’m not always in the best of moods, I’m not always happy, I’m not always encouraging, sometimes everybody get on my nerves, i don’t wanna be bothered, there are some folks I just don’t like and don’t care to be around them, there are days when I go to work and just wanna knock everybody out, and there are days when I just don’t wanna go to work period. Yes I feel that way sometimes being a born again believer, baptized and filled with the Holy Spirit, and those who can relate to being vindictive, if you were anything like me then I couldn’t rest if I didn’t pay somebody back for what they did to me. I couldn’t eat or sleep until I did something because it would linger on my mind for days and weeks, and I was always plotting. But when you take it upon yourself to pay a person back for what they’ve done to you then you’re opening a door to the spirit of pride, putting yourself in the place of God. Let me explain, in the book of Romans 12:19 it reads: Beloved do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, vengeance is mine, I will repay says the Lord. God is omnipotent, and there is nothing or no one hidden from his sight, for he sees and knows everything and he’s everywhere. He’s completely Holy, righteous, perfect, and the only one who has the right to repay and render the judgement, to anyone it is due because of who He is. When we do it ourselves, we’re not giving place to wrath (God) and our pride sets in, because we’re putting God in the back seat and have the attitude that a person must pay immediately for what they’ve done to us, and if we had the power to do so, we would strike them dead or do some serious damage. We’ll say: payback is a you know what, so they don’t know who they’re messing with. We be more concerned about our feelings and our image and hate suffering from the embarrassment of what was done to us, and then on top of that we have to deal with the whispering, gossip, and the jokes of those who heard about it and that drives us even more to the edge. We end up making a bigger mess of the situation that could lead to trouble and jail time. But one thing we must remember is that Satan was kicked out of heaven due to his pride, and because he wanted to be worshiped instead of being the worshipper, and wanted to be in control by putting himself in God’s place and once again, whenever we take revenge, we are doing the very same thing, being puffed up with pride acting as if we’re sitting on the throne and wanting to be in control which is a dangerous thing because we are not God but He is, and we are not the judge but He is, and told us to rather give place to wrath. (Him) Even Joseph could testify to my teaching because after his brothers did evil to him, this is what the scriptures says in Genesis 50:15-19: When Joseph brothers saw that their father was dead, they said, perhaps Joseph will hate us, and may actually repay us for all the evil which we did to him. So they sent messengers to Joseph, saying, thus you shall say to Joseph: I beg you, please forgive the trespasses of your brothers and their sin; for they did evil to you. Now, please forgive the trespass of the servants of the God of your father. And Joseph wept when they spoke to him. Then his brothers also went and fell down before his face, and they said, behold we are your servants. Joseph said to them, do not be afraid, for am I in the place of God? As you can see in the scriptures, Joseph knew within himself that he would’ve been putting himself God’s place if he had repaid his brothers for what they had done. But instead he remained humbled. But my favorite verse is verse number 20 when he said: You meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive. Sometimes people think they’re hurting you but in reality they’re doing you some good, by helping you because whatever they’re dishing out, then God can use it to strengthen you and make you better than what you are. I’ve been hurt, betrayed, heartbroken, lied on, cheated on, talked about, and I’ve also did it to others, but the Lord used all of those things and worked it together for my good by washing and cleansing me with His blood, to become a shining light, to teach his people and to be a living testimony. So give it all to God and let the Lord repay!!!!!!