When I had taken a three month break from writing, I didn’t go into details as to what was really going on with me and why I remained silent for that period of time, until I received a prophetic word from the Lord about two weeks ago that I needed to share my testimony about the warfare that I was dealing with in my mind. That was a very stressful time for me and I was feeling like I just wanted God to end it all, to call me home to heaven to be with Him, but that wasn’t His plan for me right now, because He wanted me to trust Him and to learn how to fight spiritually in order to live a victorious life. Everything that I’m about to tell you will sound so unreal, but if anybody think that demons doesn’t exist and that they are not real, and that hell isn’t real is sadly mistaken because they are, and they have manifested themselves to me on numerous occasions. When I had finally given up sex along with many other things that I was doing and rededicated my life back to Christ two years ago, that’s when the demonic attacks began. Demons started bringing up things about what I had done in my past but there was only one particular thought that they harassed me with continually, a thought that I will never reveal. And because I paid attention to them, I became disgusted with myself and started believing their lies instead of standing firm on God’s word and believing what the word of God said about me which says: Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. ( 2 Corinthians 5:17) By continuously listening to them, I had unaware given the demons a foothold and they begin building strongholds in my mind. A spiritual stronghold is an incorrect thinking pattern that molds itself into our way of thinking and have the capability to affect a person feelings, how they respond to various situations in life, and they play a large role in our spiritual freedom. The demons purpose was to keep me trapped in bondage, making me a prisoner in my own mind to where I started feeling like there was no way out. They were trying to convince me that I was the person that they painted me to be in my mind and because i had given them a foothold, they unleashed their evil and tormented me day and night because I had many sleepless nights and they even came into my dreams to attack me while I was asleep by touching me in a sexual way knowing that I was vulnerable by being in an unconscious state. They wanted my flesh to get aroused because their aim was for me to relapse back into sin because they knew that I once had a problem with masturbation in the past, back in 2005 when I opened that door through phone sex, but not once did I relapse or give in to that sin. I could feel those strongholds in my mind even while being awake and they were very painful and it felt like a serpent was crawling and moving around in my head and that is no lie; PEOPLE DEMONS ARE REAL!!!!!! I recited every prayer that I Googled that you could think of but it seemed like nothing was working, and I was so unhappy that i wanted to die. I was having suicidal thoughts and couldn’t understand why I was going through those things, and why I was only being attacked with that one particular thought when I had done many other things throughout my lifetime. For a minute I thought that somebody had cast a spell on me by using witchcraft until I remembered that those spirits were familiar spirits because I had this same problem back in the early 2000’s. Back then a prophetess came to me and told me that God said that I needed to pull down those strongholds but because I was very young and immature in christ, I didn’t understand what she was talking about. But today being mature and fully aware now, I know exactly what she meant. In 2 Corinthians 10:3-6 it reads: For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, and punishing every disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled. Everything that Satan and his demons tried to make me believe in my mind, I started fighting back with the word of God and quoting scriptures about what thou says the Lord, and always starting it off by saying: It Is Written!!! I am very careful now about what I think about, watch on television, read, and entertain so that I won’t open any more doors for the devil. And I tune in every morning faithfully to listen to sermons on Facebook live, and have been strengthen even more through the Man and woman of God, and my faith also has became stronger. The more that I fought back spiritually, the more that I felt those strongholds becoming weaker and weaker by the day. They still try to harass me every now and then but it’s nothing like it use to be, because I put on the whole armor of God everyday, I know who I am in Christ Jesus and know who I belong to and know that I am more than a conquer through Him who loves me; therefore if the Son sets you free, you shall be free indeed. (John 8:36)
Whenever we take a vacation, we pack our bags and luggage’s filling them with clothes and different items that we will need while being away. And depending on how much we’re taking with us, the luggage can become so full and heavy that we would need carts to help us to bear the burden because by carrying them ourselves it could somehow effect us in some way. Even with the human bodies as we already know that by weighing a certain amount and being overweight can cause serious health problems, and also carrying around spiritual weights and baggages are just as bad because it can bring a person’s life to ruins, and that’s the reason why most relationships and marriages have failed because people have brought in luggage’s from other relationships or from the past that were filled with pain, anger, insecurities, rejection, sexual, physical, mental, verbal abuse, and betrayal. But instead of some of us turning to God so that He can deal with our issues and to give us His yoke to bear, we instead choose to harbor those things inside for many years which eventually weighs us down, causing us much misery and distress. The weight of those things are too heavy because people are still holding grudges from something that happened ten, twenty, and thirty years ago. Then you go into relationships bound, and expecting your mate or your spouse to bring you some comfort and relief when they may not know what’s going on with you, because you never really talked about your past or opened up to them. And even if you opened up to them, you’re still angry because you have allowed those weights to take root within you. You’re blaming and punishing them for what others have done, and accusing them of everybody because of your insecurities; if they leave the house to go somewhere, you’re blowing up their phones thinking they’re cheating when they’re probably not, you’re accusing them of this person and that person and if you see a nice looking woman or a nice looking man then you become offended at them, all because you don’t feel good about yourself and about who you are. God could never send you a man or woman ladies and gentlemen, because your weights would suppress them and push them away, and that’s the reason why a lot of you are still single. In the book of Hebrews it reads: Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us.(Hebrews 12:1-2) Whether some of you realize this or not but sin itself is nothing but heavy weight, a deadly one at that!!! It will strain and crush the very life out of you and when I was living in it, I was extremely heavy and my life was a living hell because God made it that way until I returned back to him. Every sin that I was living in brought about a different weight, that I became so sick of myself and told God that I missed the relationship that Him and I once had, and that I wanted it back. And because God knows the heart, he knew that I was sincere and restored our relationship and I never looked back again. I am no longer bound, nor do I feel heaviness in my spirit because I have taken His yoke upon me and follow Him. I have been freed from my past, freed from sin, and freed from weights.