Now I will admit that although I’m living a celibate lifestyle doesn’t mean that I want to be alone because I don’t. I am human and I have feelings and want to be loved and be in love just like any other woman would, but because of my relationship with the Lord and knowing what he expects from me, then that leaves me with no choice but to follow his guidance concerning my life. And though I’m not the only person in the world living this type of lifestyle, there are many of you who are trusting and waiting for God to send you that right individual into your life, but the wait isn’t always easy. There are things that God has allowed me to see during my period of waiting that was helpful and nourishment to my soul, and I want to be honest and admit that I have had many thoughts and wondered such things as: will I ever get married? or will I die and go back to the grave being a single woman? I would see other couples together and would start feeling down and on top of that, I can minister and strengthen others concerning their problems or whatever they’re facing but whenever I’m going through the fire and feeling that pain of loneliness, then there’s not one friend or family member that I could call upon to receive words of wisdom from or some encouraging words that carries power, because they themselves can’t fully understand how I feel. But that’s when God stepped in and begin letting me see some things because he wanted to show me that there are benefits with being single while I’m waiting on him to send me the person he has appointed for me, and there were things taking place all around me that he wanted me to pay close attention to. I was being awaken out of my sleep late at night on the weekends due to my neighbors arguing who were a married couple, and they were airing all of their dirty laundry for everyone to hear and this was going on just about every weekend, and during the weekdays in the mornings when I made it home from work after working all night long, another couple who use to live next door to me just couldn’t get along, and the woman was getting cursed out and called all kinds of names by her boyfriend every single morning, and he would stand on his porch yelling and didn’t care who heard him either. By listening and seeing all the different chaos and losing sleep behind it, it made me look at my single life in a different way and instead of feeling down about it, I appreciate God for having me at a place to where I don’t have to deal with those type of things right now, and he’s letting me see that if I ever get married, it will never be perfect. There will be disagreements and arguments and there will be times when I would want my space. I live alone and i’m enjoying my own company, I don’t have to cook everyday if I don’t want to, my house is quiet, I can go and come as I please and don’t have to answer to anybody; I can talk to God out loud and spend quality time with him without any distraction so for those of you who are single and waiting for God to send you somebody then he wants you to be happy and content as you are while waiting on him because by waiting you have more time to spend with yourself and with him and less drama to deal with. Learn to be content in whatever situation he has you in whether you’re single, barren, widowed, divorced, or whatever the case may be because it’s for a reason, though you may never know what that reason may be.