Reaping The Harvest (Part 2)

When I entered into the courtroom, I was nervous and all alone surrounded by my lawyer, the victim, the prosecutor, and the judge. My father had my children so he couldn’t be there by my side, and my mother? She wasn’t there for me. My lawyer begged me not to crank up the jury so I didn’t, but I did take the stand to explain my side of the story and I took the plea bargain that was offered to me. So on June 3, 1998, I was sentenced to eight years in prison. Everything that I had taken for granted I longed for which was my freedom, my children, and my family. I was going from doing whatever I wanted to do to being told what to do, and once I was led out of the courtroom In handcuffs, I broke down and cried once I was taken downstairs to a holding cell and my cousin who was a sheriff at that time, comforted and encouraged me. I stayed in the county jail five weeks after my conviction and I was then shipped to Metro State Prison in Atlanta which was also called diagnostics and it was like a boot camp. I was extremely terrified although I didn’t let my fear show because I had never in my life been to prison. When me and other prisoners entered through the gates, my heart dropped when women who were bound by the spirit of homosexuality begin yelling out: FRESH MEAT. But when God has a calling on your life, he will not let no demon from hell touch you! He will let no evil befall you, nor shall any plague come near your dwelling; For he shall give his angel charge over you, to keep you in all your ways. In their hands they shall bear you up, lest you dash your foot against a stone. (Psalm 91:10-12.) I didn’t worry about anything because God was with me. When I became settled in my room, my goal was to search every religion there was to get out of that place but little did I know that I was in for a long ride. I went to a Catholic church service one evening and was given a rosary bead and they showed me and others how to pray with the beads. Afterwards I left the service once it was over and returned to my dorm and prayed that night with the beads. Deep down inside I felt that something wasn’t right about praying over a rosary, and It felt like I was talking to a stone, and my mind was very heavy. But the Lord was slowly letting me know that the way that I was going about seeking him wasn’t the way, and I eventually stop using the beads. Since this was eighteen years ago, I can’t exactly remember how I learned about salvation but I do remember reading some kind of book that had the salvation prayer written inside of it and once I read it aloud and asked God to fill me with his holy spirit, then I knew in my heart that this was the right way  because on that very same night when I had fallen asleep, out of know where, demons begin pulling all over my body in a dream, and they were trying to drag me off the bed. They were sitting on me and I couldn’t move because I was paralyzed by their strength. I am not glorifying the devil, but demons are very very strong and it’s nothing compared to human strength, and they are very much real. I started screaming out for my roommates (I had three roommates) one in particular whose name was Christy and who was  pregnant at that time. I kept yelling and screaming out but none of them could hear me because I was yelling and screaming in my dream until I said JESUS, and then I noticed that the demons begin loosening their grip on me once I called his name. And I begin saying his name over and over again JESUS JESUS, and they lifted up off of me and I woke up!

Vicky Pittard

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Reaping The Harvest (Part 1)

Truly, these times of ignorance God overlooked, but now commands all men everywhere to repent, because he has appointed a day on which he will judge the world in righteousness by the man whom he has ordained: Acts 17:30-31. In my last articles that I’d written in Exposing Myself part 1, 2, and 3, those events took place after my release from prison. But years prior to that, I was living in rebellion and committing all type of sins starting at a very young age from fifteen up until I was twenty two years old. My sins had reached its full peak and God had enough because I knew right from wrong in spite of my age and it was my time for judgement and reaping the harvest. The Lord had prison chains awaiting me to keep from wiping me completely off the face of the earth. He is indeed a loving and merciful God, full of compassion and long suffering but his mercy does run out because there’s only so much that God will tolerate and sin has to be dealt with and it will never go unpunished. He showed his kindness towards me because he knew that I was young and ignorant because my parents wasn’t teaching me anything because they were both in their mess, spiritually bound and doing their own thing so I was pretty much like a lost sheep without a Shepherd. On April 3, 1997, I was twenty two years old and seven months pregnant with my now nineteen year old son. Me and another woman got into an altercation about a man. Now a man  has always been my downfall, and every demon that had me bound manifested themselves that day because I was filled with jealousy and rage and my voice completely changed. I had never been that angry in my lifetime and I haven’t been that angry since then and one thing led to another and I ended up stabbing the woman multiple times and accidentally wounding her daughter as well while she was holding her, not being in my right state of mind. I was yelling at her with a very evil and demonic voice telling the woman to hand me my boyfriend keys because she pulled up at his house driving his car but he wasn’t at home. A friend of mine had called me informing me that the woman was on her way to his house and that’s when I took a trip out there also and brought a steak knife with me but the man wasn’t there. He had a feeling I was coming, and he left. By the grace of God, neither the woman nor the child died in the attack. She eventually threw his keys to the ground and fled and I fled also. Later on that day, I was arrested and charged with two counts of aggravated assault and spent two days in jail, and afterwards I was released on bail. I gave birth to my son in June of that same year and was able to spend almost a year with him. Throughout those eleven months I didn’t humble myself or change my ways but instead I was proud and exalted and the Lord was not pleased. I was still sleeping around and rebelling although my attitude didn’t go unnoticed because God turned my pride into sorrow as my days of freedom was coming to an end. On the morning of June 3, 1998, I kissed my eleven month old baby on the cheek while he was still sleeping, and kissed my oldest son as well who was at the time four years old and left to go to court, only to return  six years and four months later…. 

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Vicky Pittard

Exposing Myself (Part 3)

God was constantly warning me throughout the years, and he had spoken to me on numerous occasions telling me to turn from my sins. He even warned me through dreams and visions but I was so stubborn and arrogant wanting everything to go my way because I wanted to get married so bad that I was determined to get what I wanted. But I’ve learned that no human can manipulate the Lord and he’s not going to force anybody to serve him, and he’s going to respect each person’s decision but just know that there will be consequences and a judgement in the end. I was walking around with so much baggage because every man that I slept with brought along a different baggage, and when I became tired and wanted to stop getting high, men would buy me more and more marijuana because the devil was determined to keep me in bondage. Now I’ve heard people say that there’s nothing wrong with smoking weed because it came from the earth and that there’s nothing wrong with masturbation. But my response to them is this: The Devil Is A Liar!!!! Everything that comes from the earth doesn’t mean that it’s good for you. In the book of Genesis 2:16-17 it says: and the Lord commanded the man saying, of every tree of the garden you may freely eat; but of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil you shall not eat, for in the day that you eat of it you shall surely die. Therefore the tree of the knowledge of good and evil came from the earth but the fruit was not to be eaten. Marijuana is a drug and it does have side effects after a long term use of it such as: altered senses, changes in mood, impaired body movement, difficulty with thinking and problem solving, impaired memory, breathing problems, increased heart rate with the chance of a heart attack, and problems with child development during and after pregnancy. And just because it’s legal in certain states, doesn’t mean that God approves of it. In the book of Romans 12:1 it says: I beseech you therefore my brethren by the mercies of God that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service. Smoking or snorting cocaine, the use of marijuana, meth, heroin, and etc. is not holy and acceptable to God because anything that we put into our physical bodies that causes physical or mental harm is sin. And masturbation which means to stimulate one’s own genitals for sexual pleasures is not holy and acceptable to God either. A two second orgasm isn’t worth spending eternity in a burning hell and I was on my way there. Satan knows that his time on earth is short and that his destiny has already been written in the book of revelation and there is absolutely no hope for him. But there’s hope for us who have repented and still alive and remaining but just beware, because Satan is trying to take many to hell with him as possible and it’s so sad that many are serving him, dying, and going there every single day. He’ll make you think that everybody goes to heaven when they die but that is not true so do not be deceived.


Vicky Pittard

Exposing Myself (Part 2)

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I became bound to the spirit of masturbation and found myself doing it often once I opened that door and even if I just had sex with a man, I still masturbated afterwards because the spirit of lust had taken root and I had no control over it. Whenever a person open a door for the devil he will bring along other demons with himself to make a home in your body. I was dealing with a spirit of masturbation, lust, and perversion. In the book of Luke 11:24-26 it says: when an unclean spirit goes out of a man, he goes through dry places, seeking rest; and finding none, he says, I will return to my house from which I came. And when he comes, he finds it swept and put in order. Then he goes and takes with him seven other spirits more wicked than himself, and they enter and dwell there; and the last state of that man is worse than the first. Now remember, I was serving the Lord at one time and followed him faithfully and my life was swept and put in order. But I didn’t fully surrender everything and nor did I allow God to get to the root of my problem which was a man. Therefore as soon as temptation approached I fell, and I fell hard. I became worse off in the end just like the bible said, than I was in the very beginning when I first dedicated my life to God. My old lifestyle came back and I started back smoking cigarettes, marijuana, and drinking on a daily basis. All of my friends were only those who either smoked weed, cigarettes, or either was a drinker because I needed them to support my habits. My appearance began to change and I didn’t realize how bad I was looking until I went to visit my mom one particular day and she looked into my eyes with disappointment and said: Vicky you are looking so bad. Eleven years ago I looked like I was smoking crack cocaine and I never did crack a day in my life. I lost so much weight and was skin and bones and on top of that I cut off all of my hair which made me look even worse. I could’ve played a part in the television series called The Walking Dead because I looked as if I was getting ready to die at any given moment. My life hit rock bottom and during that time I was living with my father and didn’t have a job. I was getting food stamps once a month and would sell them for weed. I can testify today that I was so bad off and was becoming worse each day. I wasn’t a good mother to my two children because I was too busy putting all of my time and affection into men and was in the streets all day everyday. I wanted that life again when I didn’t have any children but I first want to make something perfectly clear so that nobody gets confused, what I meant by saying that men was my problem is that choosing the wrong men was my problem, and every time I got involved with a different man, he was the wrong man every time which was every two to three months that I had a new one because my relationships during that time never lasted a full year. I use to always send prayers up to God saying: God please bless this relationship by allowing me and this man to get married. It’s embarrassing to say that I prayed this same prayer for different men for eleven straight years, and because that wasn’t God’s will for me to marry any of them it never happened and God never answered my prayer. I told God that if I got married then I wouldn’t be committing fornication because I knew it was wrong and knowing that I had already turned my back on God and was no longer doing what was right, death became my worse fear and thoughts of eternity in hell was always on my mind.

Exposing Myself (Part 1)

In the book of Ecclesiastes 3:1 it says: To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven. This is definitely my season and God has placed me in the right place at the right time although it took me years to get where I am because I spent most of my life in rebellion. No this is not my season to be a wife but a season to put myself out there; to put my past on display in order to help somebody. I will be exposing myself without dressing anything up because God can’t move through a dressed up testimony, a testimony that’s pretty and all cleaned up. But God is raising up men and women such as myself to tell it like it is and baring all without being ashame and to expose sin for what it really is because God’s power is more effective through flaws, failures, defeat, and weaknesses to remind the people of God that we did not become who we are or what we are on our own, but only through his power. My road leading to celibacy didn’t happen overnight but my journey puts me in the mind of the children of Israel when they wandered in the wilderness forty years after God delivered them out of the land of Egypt. During those forty years they murmured, complained; they were stubborn, disobedient, and ungrateful which reminds me of myself. In the book of Deuteronomy 1:2 it says: It is eleven days journey from Horeb by way of Mount Seir to Kadesh Barnea. So Moses was saying that after the Exodus from Egypt it was only an eleven day journey for them to enter into the promised land, but an eleven day journey turned into forty years due to their disobedience. And for me it took from 2004 until 2015 (eleven years) to finally say yes Lord and to fully surrender my life to Him at the age of forty. And it wasn’t because I didn’t know the Lord because I did know him and I witnessed his power and the transformation that he brought about in my life but my problem was men. I always had to have somebody in my life and felt that something was wrong with me if I didn’t. I felt like I could change a person by living a Christian lifestyle in their presence and that I could make a difference in their life, but it’s a lie and a set up from the devil, and a major set up from hell. The bible even warns believers in 2 Corinthians 6:14-16 saying: Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers. For what fellowship has righteousness with lawlessness? And what communion has light with darkness? And what accord has Christ with belial? Or what part has a believer with an unbeliever? And what agreement has the temple of God with idols? In verse seventeen he also says: Come out from among them and be separate says the Lord. Do not touch what is unclean and I will receive you. So when you’re thinking that your Christian lifestyle will have an influence on them, their lifestyle will begin to have an influence on you instead and that’s when my troubles really began. The love, joy, peace, and happiness that I once felt and experienced while following and living for the Lord soon passed away and my heart begin to change and turn away from God and from all of the teachings that I had been taught about Him. The men that I was dealing with was corrupt and I became corrupt. Their thinking became my thinking and their lifestyle became my lifestyle and God was no where in the picture. Back in 2005 I was introduced to phone sex opening a demonic door that took years to shut. There was a guy that I was friends with during that time and I never masturbated or did anything like that in my entire life not even while I was in prison. The man told me to do certain things while I spoke with him over the phone and I listened to him and began touching myself until I had an orgasm allowing the spirit of masturbation to enter into my life. When you depart from the Lord, you can never say what you will not do because you would be amazed at some of the things that you are capable of doing. In the book of Jeremiah verse seventeen verse nine it says: The heart is deceitful above all things and desperately wicked; who can know it? So please do not be deceived, because you do not know your heart like you think you know it.

Vicky Pittard

Know Your Worth

There are women that I know who has been with their significant other for a very long time. Some five, seven, ten, and even sixteen years together and they’re still not married; something that is very hard for me to understand. My question to you is this, why perform the duties of a wife and not actually be the wife? Why hasn’t he popped the question after being with you for so many years? I will tell you why! It is because you have became too comfortable to where you’re not mentioning or pushing the issue concerning marriage because as long as you have a man in the house with you then that’s all that matters to you. You’re thinking in your mind that as long as he comes home to you then everything is okay. But in my opinion you are a woman who would just settle for anything because if you truly love yourself and consider yourself as valuable then you would make your demands, let it be known what you want, and stand firm in what you believe and deserve. What you are is what you will attract! If you’re broken then you will attract someone else who’s broken, and if you have low self-esteem, then that’s what you’ll get; if you don’t know what you want, then you will attract a man who doesn’t know what he wants either. And once he sees all of the characteristics in you that he see in himself that you’re pretty much like him then he will never see the need for marriage or settling down with you. From the very beginning you should already have your mind made up about what you want and what you’re looking for in a man. When you’re dating a man, that man should be able to say in the back of his mind: Now there’s just something about this woman that stands out; I don’t know what it is but it’s just something about her. There should be something that stands out about you that would tell a man that you’re everything that he needs and more, you’re everything that he wants and that you are the wife material without you having to say a word. Ladies we could get anything we want without having to sleep with a man because the way that you carry and present yourself will speak for itself and will tell a man everything that he needs to know about you. When a man sees that you’re a woman who’s all about your business, independent, strong, and confident then he wouldn’t have a choice but to fall in line and give you the respect that you so deserve. He will see that he cannot walk all over you or mistreat you; he will also see that you’re very independent and really don’t need him. And if he overstep his boundaries in any way then he know that he would quickly be dismissed. Be that woman who knows her worth and stop settling for anything because you’ll definitely see a difference in a man’s attitude towards you. God did not place you here to be a girlfriend but a wife. Think like a man? No!!! think like God and know your worth.

Vicky Pittard

Give God Something To Work With

As women we all desire that knight and shining armor, we all desire that right man to come along and to sweep us off of our feet and we all want that good man and constantly pray to God for him and try to wait patiently for God to answer our prayers. But then we begin to realize that months, weeks, and even years have passed by and wonder whether or not God has been listening to our prayers because we have become frustrated and sometimes angry when we receive no answer from him. But throughout my spiritual journey I have learned and yet still learning about God that in order for Him to give us the best then we have to put ourselves in a position to receive what we’re asking of him. Do you want a good man? Then you will have to prepare yourself and also allow God to prepare you as well. You got to give God something to work with! Some of you may be saying well what do you mean by giving God something to work with? What I mean is that there will be some sacrifices that need to be made. Sacrifices that will be painful, uncomfortable, but at the end worth it. You will have to give up some things such as bad habits, entertaining and being around the wrong people, and there will be places where you would need to stop going and hanging out every weekend or every other weekend such as the night clubs and bars because remember you’re getting yourself ready to become a wife which means you will need to be at home with your husband and children, not in the streets all the time and there can be no half stepping. It’s so easy to say, oh I’m ready! but in reality you’re not and God knows that too. If there’s a man out there who has a relationship with the Lord and he’s spending time in prayer, feeding his spirit each day by reading God’s word and he knows that he’s in the will of God and doing those things which pleases the Lord such as honoring his body and exercising self control then such a man would also seek a woman with the same mind frame. I myself live a celibate lifestyle and I have a relationship with the Lord and I definitely wouldn’t want a man who doesn’t know God or doesn’t have a relationship with Him who’s sleeping around with every woman under the sun and a decent man wouldn’t want a woman like that either. You can’t expect God to answer your prayers and send you a man when you’re still sleeping with your exe boyfriend, your children’s father, or somebody at your job, or either somebody else’s husband. You’re not ready for a man when you’re always in the streets and at somebody’s house gossiping, being in everybody’s business, acting foolish, being petty, on the phone twenty four hours a day creating all types of drama. You can’t cook and don’t clean up your house and every weekend you got a card game going on at your house with loud music playing and with people going in and out of your house drinking and partying like it’s New Year’s Eve. Your friends wouldn’t have to go to the clubs anymore because the club is at your house. Let’s get it together ladies and prepare yourself and if you have young children then they need to be house trained, well mannered, obedient, and respectful to any positive male influence who are willing to be apart of their lives. God wants you fully complete and lacking nothing so therefore give up wasting useless time entertaining Facebook , Instagram, and Twitter by taking pictures of yourself exposing your body parts and revealing your nakedness, bringing shame and dishonor to your bodies and gaining a bad reputation. Give God something to work with and watch him bless you.

Vicky Pittard