Have you ever felt at some point in your life that the whole world was against you? Where there was conflict coming from every side whether it was on your job, at home, or within your family? I have left jobs to work somewhere else because the pressure was too much, only to go through it all over again at the new job. No matter where I tried to run to, trouble always seemed to find me. I was marked from birth, set apart and chosen by God. I never was the type to have many friends and was strange in many people eyes growing up because they could not understand me or figure me out, but how can you completely understand a person who has been chosen by the Living God when God Himself cannot be figured out? Not only that but i was considered as crazy all of my life. A reputation that once put fear in the hearts of men because many of them was afraid of me and just would not date me. Every true born again believer is marked; chosen, anointed, empowered, and set apart. And being marked also comes with a cross that you’re crucified to all the days of your life. I’ve had more conflict with immediate family members than I’ve had with strangers. Whoever is a willing and open vessel, the devil will use even if it’s yours brothers, sisters, sons and daughters. Now that I’m wiser and up in age, I have zero tolerance on chaos, divisions, and people who just love creating drama. Everybody should have that mindset because people will stress you out if you allow them to and drive you crazy. And to be truthful with you about my zero tolerance level, I’m not on speaking terms with my own mother, sister, and brother. I blocked all of them and changed my number because my family loves drama and love seeing everybody against one another, talking about one another and I don’t have time for it because it’s been ongoing and back and forth for years. Sometimes you have to separate yourself and cut people off in order for them to see themselves to allow the conviction to kick in. Life is too short and I refuse to live in misery because others are not happy with themselves but bitter, and extremely messy. You have people on the jobs who wanna compete with you when there’s really no competition. The mark on your life gives you favor with your bosses that causes others to envy you for no reason because working hard is in me, and I know what needs to be done without my bosses having to tell me. And will do even more without them having to ask me, but no matter how good you are or try to be evil is always present. There will always be a snake lying in wait ready to attack, with another demon supporting it. Jesus spoke of the world’s hatred toward believers in John 15:19. It doesn’t surprise me at all when people hates me and it shouldn’t surprise you either. They hate the mark, the light, the lifestyle, they hate who you represent, and they definitely hate the Gospel.
Now I don’t have to remind everyone that eventually we’re going to die because everybody is fully aware of that, and a lot of times we don’t wanna think about death but whether we think about it or not, we know that it’s coming. But losing a love one is the most hardest thing that a person has to endure because all that is left are the memories, and knowing that they will never walk the face of the earth again is torture within itself. But again, maybe if we start to think about death more often then we will be prepared and know how to cope with the pain once a person passes away because some people take it very hard due to regrets. Regretting for not spending time with the individual like they should have or not telling the person how much they love them while they were still here. Or maybe there were disagreements and you didn’t get the opportunity to make things right and you say to yourself: I should have done this or I should have done that or I wish this and I wish that, constantly beating yourself up. But if you just remind yourself that everybody is not going to live forever and begin to treat people as if it’s their last day on earth, then it will make it easier for you when they do pass away because today could be their last day, just like it could your last day, you’ll never know. Spend quality time with with your love ones, tell them how much you appreciate and love them, do good deeds and bless them for no reason, make videos during the happier times so that you can always have something to look back on with no regrets. Why go to the grave and talk to the wind, when you can talk to them now? Why put flowers on the grave when you can give them flowers now? Why go and visit their graves when you can visit them right now? Do good deeds now, and that will ease your pain later, show them love right now and that will be your healing when death occurs because you will be at peace for all that you have done. But most of all if they died in Christ then you already know where they are, and that should be your greatest comfort.
Have you ever prayed to God asking for deliverance whether it was from an addition or some form of habit or anything that was keeping you in bondage only to find yourself delivered for a little while and then relapse? Or if you don’t relapse then you’re still wrestling and struggling with the very thing that you can’t seem to shake off? Well it’s because there’s an open door, or doors (more than one) that hasn’t been completely closed yet. You may be asking yourself what do she mean by an open door? I am talking about spiritual doors that we willingly open out of ignorance, when we’re caught up and bound in all types of sin and really don’t know the major effects that it has on us, because when you’re living for the devil you are completely opened, making your body, soul, and spirit available for him and his demons to dwell,and you better believe they’re coming. And as they’re entering, they’re bringing spirits more wicked than themselves (Luke 11:24-26) and you’ll find yourself all messed up, possessed with demons you never thought you had, thinking you’re losing your mind when you start desiring the opposite sex and thinking perverted thoughts. No you’re not losing your mind but you’re opened, and that type of spirit has entered into you. A lot of born again believers are walking around with open doors and i was one of them because i use to let any wrong thought roam freely through my mind without casting them down. The door to my mind was so opened that it allowed the devil to come in and create strongholds and i was mentally tormented from those satanic attacks but you can read more about that in my article: Spiritual Warfare; The Battlefield Of The Mind. Now the bible clearly states that if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed (John 8:36) but my question to some of you is this, if you have prayed for deliverance then what are you willing to do to stay free? You can’t expect to stay free if you don’t have a prayer life, and your spirit is starving because it is being deprived of the word. (the bible) and you’re not putting anything in it. Some of you are too lazy to read only one verse in the bible but you would spend an entire day on your cell phones talking, texting, strolling, and entertaining social media. I know you have heard of people being alcohol or drug free for years, some 15 and 20 plus years and then relapse. And if some haven’t relapsed without having God in their lives then it’s because the prayer of the righteous is still upholding them. Somebody’s praying for them! (James 5:16) I am a former masturbator, and i didn’t do it while serving time in prison but a year after i was released (2005) but i do not wrestle or struggle with that anymore because the door has been closed for years. If you’re still struggling with something then it’s because it’s still there, but you’ll know when you’re fully delivered when it no longer becomes a thought or even enter your mind. Every now and then you may be tempted with it, but nothing will move on the inside because you died to it, and the desires have died as well. To this day, i am still cool with an ex- boyfriend that i dated back in 2010, and we stayed together off and on for two and a half years and finally went our separate ways for good in 2013. He recently gotten his own place and wanted me to come over to see how nice he had fixed it up, and although i have absolutely no desire of wanting to be with him again, i will never step a foot into his house because that’s a door that God closed behind me, and i refuse to go back through it. It’s okay to be cool with people, but sometimes it’s good to be cool from a distant!!! Don’t ever go back through a door that God has closed, because even Jesus himself said: No one having put his hand to the plow, and looking back is not fit for the kingdom of God (Luke 9:62)
Many of us who wake up every morning we wake up to a new mercy, new grace, and another day to get it right. Days and nights come and go, the months pass swiftly and before you know it, it’s the end of the year. We celebrate a new year and then afterwards everything returns back to normal and repeats itself all over again. But how many of us think about the what ifs? What if I die today then where will I spend eternity? Or what if I take my last breath then where will I go? Most of us don’t like to think about death and some don’t consider the thought of it but instead choose to gamble with their souls everyday, living as they please and feel that they only have one life to live and they’re going to live it however they want to which is true, you do only have one life to live but we also have one chance to get it right with the Lord. So many people are dying both young and old alike and I’m always seeing on social media people writing comforting words on the behalf of the dead such as: Rest in peace, rest in heaven, you’re in a better place now and don’t have to suffer anymore. But are they really resting in peace? Have they ceased from suffering? Are they really in heaven? Are they really in the presence of God? What kind of life did they live before they died? Hebrew 12:14 reads: Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no man will see the Lord. You may say he or she was a good person but being good is not enough, were they holy? It’s nice to think that everybody goes to heaven when they die but people are forgetting one thing, that God created a hell also and the Bible warns that those who live their life fulfilling the desires of the flesh, living outside the will of God and die in their sins will go to such a place. (Luke 16:19-31, Luke 13:22-30, Mark 9:42-48, Revelation 20:15) Some say that hell is the grave or hell is on earth but my response to that is this, you can think whatever you wanna think and believe whatever you wanna believe because hell isn’t going to stop existing just because you don’t believe in it. I’m neither going to test God or gamble with my soul to see whether or not it’s real because he said it, and therefore I believe. How can a loving God send people to hell? People often ask that question including my own Mother, but how can a holy and righteous God not punish sinners after sending his son to die for our sins to keep us from going to such a place? And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgement, so Christ was offered once to bear the sins of many. ( Hebrews 9:27) The devil is really deceiving people in these last days because he’s telling a lot of them to end their own lives in order to escape the hardships, the disappointments, the stress, even to escape consequences of an action, and they’re committing suicide thinking that’s the end of all of their misery and some are killing themselves and taking others with them. But what a great deception that is until they find themselves awaken in a place which is beyond our imagination, lifting up their eyes in hell and realizing they’re in a hopeless situation and completely separated from God forever. No one can help them, no one can save them, no one can deliver or pray them out of there, once you’re in you’re in, there is no coming back from the dead to get it right, mercy and grace is gone, and the cries and pleas are now reaching deaf ears. Behold, now is the accepted time; behold now is the day of salvation. ( 2 Corinthians 6:2) I don’t hear too many hell sermons anymore, and not that people should be beaten over the head constantly about it but people do need to be reminded of it. Ten years ago I was dating a guy who was a boot legged preacher, and the reason I call him a boot leg preacher is because he was one of those preachers who would go to church preaching sermons but wasn’t living right himself. He loved it when people greeted him as pastor and shaking his hand, and he would go to people houses to visit them putting on the image of a loving concerned pastor when really he was the blind leading the blind. We were sleeping together and he didn’t see anything wrong with it and had the nerve to tell me that he doesn’t preach hell sermons, but of course you’re not going to preach a hell sermon when you’re not living right. That very same night after he had taken me home, the Lord spoke to me in my living room and said: If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. Right then I knew where the Lord was going with that because it’s in his word: If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter into life maimed, rather than having two hands, to go to hell, into the fire that shall never be quenched where their worm does not die and the fire not quenched. (Mark 9:42-44) I would never want to get caught on fire on earth but to go to a place for eternity that was created for the devil and his angels, send chills throughout my body and the human mind cannot comprehend how horrific it really is. The next second is not promised to us and no one knows where death is but you should be ready and spiritually prepared when it comes. Where will you spend eternity? Your final destination?
Back in the day, in the early nineties, I use to be the queen of getting revenge and sadly to say I’m still dealing with that from time to time, but it’s not as bad as it use to be. God gave me a revelation concerning a vindictive spirit that I would like to share with you because as a teacher, I would never try to appear as being a strong woman who has overcame everything, and have it all together because I don’t. And I feel that if preachers, teachers, and evangelist would preach more about their own shortcomings and weaknesses, and admit how they also struggle with certain things, then more people would pay attention and take the message serious, being glad to surrender to the kingdom of God because people are going through things, and they’re looking for somebody who’s gonna keep it real and who can relate to whatever they’re dealing with. So to every human being, I can relate to you because I myself am human; I’m not always in the best of moods, I’m not always happy, I’m not always encouraging, sometimes everybody get on my nerves, i don’t wanna be bothered, there are some folks I just don’t like and don’t care to be around them, there are days when I go to work and just wanna knock everybody out, and there are days when I just don’t wanna go to work period. Yes I feel that way sometimes being a born again believer, baptized and filled with the Holy Spirit, and those who can relate to being vindictive, if you were anything like me then I couldn’t rest if I didn’t pay somebody back for what they did to me. I couldn’t eat or sleep until I did something because it would linger on my mind for days and weeks, and I was always plotting. But when you take it upon yourself to pay a person back for what they’ve done to you then you’re opening a door to the spirit of pride, putting yourself in the place of God. Let me explain, in the book of Romans 12:19 it reads: Beloved do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, vengeance is mine, I will repay says the Lord. God is omnipotent, and there is nothing or no one hidden from his sight, for he sees and knows everything and he’s everywhere. He’s completely Holy, righteous, perfect, and the only one who has the right to repay and render the judgement, to anyone it is due because of who He is. When we do it ourselves, we’re not giving place to wrath (God) and our pride sets in, because we’re putting God in the back seat and have the attitude that a person must pay immediately for what they’ve done to us, and if we had the power to do so, we would strike them dead or do some serious damage. We’ll say: payback is a you know what, so they don’t know who they’re messing with. We be more concerned about our feelings and our image and hate suffering from the embarrassment of what was done to us, and then on top of that we have to deal with the whispering, gossip, and the jokes of those who heard about it and that drives us even more to the edge. We end up making a bigger mess of the situation that could lead to trouble and jail time. But one thing we must remember is that Satan was kicked out of heaven due to his pride, and because he wanted to be worshiped instead of being the worshipper, and wanted to be in control by putting himself in God’s place and once again, whenever we take revenge, we are doing the very same thing, being puffed up with pride acting as if we’re sitting on the throne and wanting to be in control which is a dangerous thing because we are not God but He is, and we are not the judge but He is, and told us to rather give place to wrath. (Him) Even Joseph could testify to my teaching because after his brothers did evil to him, this is what the scriptures says in Genesis 50:15-19: When Joseph brothers saw that their father was dead, they said, perhaps Joseph will hate us, and may actually repay us for all the evil which we did to him. So they sent messengers to Joseph, saying, thus you shall say to Joseph: I beg you, please forgive the trespasses of your brothers and their sin; for they did evil to you. Now, please forgive the trespass of the servants of the God of your father. And Joseph wept when they spoke to him. Then his brothers also went and fell down before his face, and they said, behold we are your servants. Joseph said to them, do not be afraid, for am I in the place of God? As you can see in the scriptures, Joseph knew within himself that he would’ve been putting himself God’s place if he had repaid his brothers for what they had done. But instead he remained humbled. But my favorite verse is verse number 20 when he said: You meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive. Sometimes people think they’re hurting you but in reality they’re doing you some good, by helping you because whatever they’re dishing out, then God can use it to strengthen you and make you better than what you are. I’ve been hurt, betrayed, heartbroken, lied on, cheated on, talked about, and I’ve also did it to others, but the Lord used all of those things and worked it together for my good by washing and cleansing me with His blood, to become a shining light, to teach his people and to be a living testimony. So give it all to God and let the Lord repay!!!!!!
When I had taken a three month break from writing, I didn’t go into details as to what was really going on with me and why I remained silent for that period of time, until I received a prophetic word from the Lord about two weeks ago that I needed to share my testimony about the warfare that I was dealing with in my mind. That was a very stressful time for me and I was feeling like I just wanted God to end it all, to call me home to heaven to be with Him, but that wasn’t His plan for me right now, because He wanted me to trust Him and to learn how to fight spiritually in order to live a victorious life. Everything that I’m about to tell you will sound so unreal, but if anybody think that demons doesn’t exist and that they are not real, and that hell isn’t real is sadly mistaken because they are, and they have manifested themselves to me on numerous occasions. When I had finally given up sex along with many other things that I was doing and rededicated my life back to Christ two years ago, that’s when the demonic attacks began. Demons started bringing up things about what I had done in my past but there was only one particular thought that they harassed me with continually, a thought that I will never reveal. And because I paid attention to them, I became disgusted with myself and started believing their lies instead of standing firm on God’s word and believing what the word of God said about me which says: Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. ( 2 Corinthians 5:17) By continuously listening to them, I had unaware given the demons a foothold and they begin building strongholds in my mind. A spiritual stronghold is an incorrect thinking pattern that molds itself into our way of thinking and have the capability to affect a person feelings, how they respond to various situations in life, and they play a large role in our spiritual freedom. The demons purpose was to keep me trapped in bondage, making me a prisoner in my own mind to where I started feeling like there was no way out. They were trying to convince me that I was the person that they painted me to be in my mind and because i had given them a foothold, they unleashed their evil and tormented me day and night because I had many sleepless nights and they even came into my dreams to attack me while I was asleep by touching me in a sexual way knowing that I was vulnerable by being in an unconscious state. They wanted my flesh to get aroused because their aim was for me to relapse back into sin because they knew that I once had a problem with masturbation in the past, back in 2005 when I opened that door through phone sex, but not once did I relapse or give in to that sin. I could feel those strongholds in my mind even while being awake and they were very painful and it felt like a serpent was crawling and moving around in my head and that is no lie; PEOPLE DEMONS ARE REAL!!!!!! I recited every prayer that I Googled that you could think of but it seemed like nothing was working, and I was so unhappy that i wanted to die. I was having suicidal thoughts and couldn’t understand why I was going through those things, and why I was only being attacked with that one particular thought when I had done many other things throughout my lifetime. For a minute I thought that somebody had cast a spell on me by using witchcraft until I remembered that those spirits were familiar spirits because I had this same problem back in the early 2000’s. Back then a prophetess came to me and told me that God said that I needed to pull down those strongholds but because I was very young and immature in christ, I didn’t understand what she was talking about. But today being mature and fully aware now, I know exactly what she meant. In 2 Corinthians 10:3-6 it reads: For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, and punishing every disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled. Everything that Satan and his demons tried to make me believe in my mind, I started fighting back with the word of God and quoting scriptures about what thou says the Lord, and always starting it off by saying: It Is Written!!! I am very careful now about what I think about, watch on television, read, and entertain so that I won’t open any more doors for the devil. And I tune in every morning faithfully to listen to sermons on Facebook live, and have been strengthen even more through the Man and woman of God, and my faith also has became stronger. The more that I fought back spiritually, the more that I felt those strongholds becoming weaker and weaker by the day. They still try to harass me every now and then but it’s nothing like it use to be, because I put on the whole armor of God everyday, I know who I am in Christ Jesus and know who I belong to and know that I am more than a conquer through Him who loves me; therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed. (John 8:36)
Whenever we take a vacation, we pack our bags and luggage’s filling them with clothes and different items that we will need while being away. And depending on how much we’re taking with us, the luggage can become so full and heavy that we would need carts to help us to bear the burden because by carrying them ourselves it could somehow effect us in some way. Even with the human bodies as we already know that by weighing a certain amount and being overweight can cause serious health problems, and also carrying around spiritual weights and baggages are just as bad because it can bring a person’s life to ruins, and that’s the reason why most relationships and marriages have failed because people have brought in luggage’s from other relationships or from the past that were filled with pain, anger, insecurities, rejection, sexual, physical, mental, verbal abuse, and betrayal. But instead of some of us turning to God so that He can deal with our issues and to give us His yoke to bear, we instead choose to harbor those things inside for many years which eventually weighs us down, causing us much misery and distress. The weight of those things are too heavy because people are still holding grudges from something that happened ten, twenty, and thirty years ago. Then you go into relationships bound, and expecting your mate or your spouse to bring you some comfort and relief when they may not know what’s going on with you, because you never really talked about your past or opened up to them. And even if you opened up to them, you’re still angry because you have allowed those weights to take root within you. You’re blaming and punishing them for what others have done, and accusing them of everybody because of your insecurities; if they leave the house to go somewhere, you’re blowing up their phones thinking they’re cheating when they’re probably not, you’re accusing them of this person and that person and if you see a nice looking woman or a nice looking man then you become offended at them, all because you don’t feel good about yourself and about who you are. God could never send you a man or woman ladies and gentlemen, because your weights would suppress them and push them away, and that’s the reason why a lot of you are still single. In the book of Hebrews it reads: Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us.(Hebrews 12:1-2) Whether some of you realize this or not but sin itself is nothing but heavy weight, a deadly one at that!!! It will strain and crush the very life out of you and when I was living in it, I was extremely heavy and my life was a living hell because God made it that way until I returned back to him. Every sin that I was living in brought about a different weight, that I became so sick of myself and told God that I missed the relationship that Him and I once had, and that I wanted it back. And because God knows the heart, he knew that I was sincere and restored our relationship and I never looked back again. I am no longer bound, nor do I feel heaviness in my spirit because I have taken His yoke upon me and follow Him. I have been freed from my past, freed from sin, and freed from weights.