For those of us who wake up every morning we wake up to a new mercy, new grace, and another day to get it right. Days and nights come and go, the months pass swiftly and before you know it, it’s the end of the year. We celebrate a new year and then afterwards everything returns back to normal and repeats itself all over again. But how many of us think about the what ifs? What if I die today then where will I spend eternity? Or what if I take my last breath then where will I go? Most of us don’t like to think about death and some don’t ever consider the thought of it but instead, choose to gamble with their souls everyday living as they please and feel that they only have one life to live and they’re going to live it however they want to which is true, you do only have one life to live but we also have only one chance to get it right with the Lord. So many people are dying both young and old alike and I’m always seeing on social media people writing comforting words on the behalf of the dead such as: Rest in peace, rest in heaven, you’re in a better place now and don’t have to suffer anymore. But are they really resting in peace? Have they ceased from suffering? Are they really in heaven? Are they really in the presence of God? What kind of life did they live before they died? Hebrew 12:14 reads: Pursue peace with all people, and holiness, without which no man will see the Lord. You may say he or she was a good person but being good is not enough, were they holy? It’s nice to think that everybody goes to heaven when they die but people are forgetting one thing, that God created a hell also and the Bible warns that those who live their own way and die in their sins will go to such a place. (Luke 16:19-31, Luke 13:22-30, Mark 9:42-48, Revelation 20:15) Some say that hell is the grave or hell is on Earth but my response to that is this, you can think whatever you wanna think and believe whatever you wanna believe because hell isn’t going to stop existing just because you don’t believe in it. I’m neither going to test God or gamble with my soul to see whether or not it’s real because he said it, and therefore I believe. How can a loving God send people to hell? People often ask that question including my own Mother, but how can a holy and righteous God not punish sinners after sending his son to die for our sins? And as it is appointed for men to die once, but after this the judgement, so Christ was offered once to bear the sins of many. ( Hebrews 9:27) The devil is really deceiving folks in these last days because he’s telling a lot of them to end their own lives in order to escape the hardship and the disappointments on earth, and they’re committing suicide thinking that’s the end of all of their misery and some are killing themselves and killing others with them. But what a great deception that is until they find themselves awaken in a place which is beyond our imagination, lifting up their eyes in hell and realizing they’re in a hopeless situation and completely separated from God forever. No one can help them, no one can save them, no one can deliver or pray them out of there, once you’re in you’re in, there is no coming back from the dead to get it right, and the cries and pleas are now reaching deaf ears. Behold, now is the accepted time; behold now is the day of salvation. ( 2 Corinthians 6:2) I don’t hear too many hell sermons anymore, and not that people should be beaten over the head constantly about it but people do need to be reminded of it. Ten years ago I was dating a guy who was a boot legged preacher, and the reason I call him a boot leg preacher is because he was one of those preachers who would go to church preaching sermons but wasn’t living right himself. He loved it when people greeted him as pastor and shaking his hand, and he would go to people houses to visit them putting on the image of a loving concerned pastor when really he was the blind leading the blind. We were sleeping together and he didn’t see anything wrong with it and had the nerve to tell me that he doesn’t preach hell sermons, but of course you’re not going to preach a hell sermon when you’re not living right. That very same night after he had taken me home, the Lord spoke to me in my living room and said: If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. Right then I knew where the Lord was going with that because it’s in his word: If your hand causes you to sin, cut it off. It is better for you to enter into life maimed, rather than having two hands, to go to hell, into the fire that shall never be quenched where their worm does not die and the fire not quenched. (Mark 9:42-44) I would never want to get caught on fire on earth but to go to a place for eternity that was created for the devil and his angels, send chills throughout my body and the human mind cannot comprehend how horrific it really is. The next second is not promised to us and no one knows where death is, but you should be ready and spiritually prepared when it comes. Where will you spend eternity? Your final destination?
Back in the day in the early nineties, I use to be the queen of getting revenge and sadly to say I still struggle with that from time to time but it’s not as bad as it use to be. God gave me a revelation concerning a vindictive spirit that I would like to share with you because as a teacher I would never try to appear as being a strong woman who has overcame everything and have it all together because I don’t. And I feel that if preachers, teachers, and evangelist would preach more about their own shortcomings and weaknesses and admit how they also struggle with certain things then more people would take heed to their messages and be glad to surrender to the kingdom of God because people are going through some things and they’re looking for somebody who’s gonna keep it real and who can relate to whatever they’re dealing with. So to every human being, I can relate to you because I myself am human; I’m not always in the best of moods, I’m not always happy, I’m not always encouraging, sometimes everybody get on my nerves, i don’t wanna be bothered, there are some folks I just don’t like and don’t care to be around them, there are days when I go to work and just wanna knock everybody out, and there are days when I just don’t wanna go to work period. Yes I feel that way sometimes being a born again believer baptized and filled with the Holy Spirit and those who can relate to being vindictive, if you were anything like me then I couldn’t rest if I didn’t pay somebody back for what they did to me, I couldn’t eat or sleep until I did something because it would linger on my mind for days, weeks, or months, and I was constantly plotting. But when you take it upon yourself to pay a person back for what they have done to you then you’re actually opening the door to the spirit of pride and putting yourself in the place of God. Let me explain, in the book of Romans 12:19 it reads: Beloved do not avenge yourselves, but rather give place to wrath; for it is written, vengeance is mine, I will repay says the Lord. God is onipotent and there is nothing or no one hidden from his sight, for he sees and knows everything and he’s everywhere. He’s completely Holy, righteous, perfect, and the only one who has the right to repay and render the judgement to whom it is due because of who he is. When we do it ourselves, our pride sets in with it and we have the attitude that a person must pay immediately for what they did to us and if we had the power we would strike them dead or we’ll do some serious damage. We’ll say: how could he or she do that to me out of all people’s? Do they realize who I am? We be more concerned about ourselves and our image and hate suffering from the embarrassment of what was done to us and then have to deal with the whispering, gossip, and the laughter of those who heard about it and that drives us even more to the edge and we end up making a bigger mess of the situation that can lead to trouble and jail time. But one thing we must remember is that Satan was kicked out of heaven due to his pride and because he wanted to be worshiped instead of being the worshipper and wanted to be in control by trying to put himself in God’s place and once again whenever we take revenge we are doing the very same thing, being puffed up with pride and act as if we’re sitting on the throne by wanting to be in control which is a dangerous thing because we are not God but he is, and we are not the judge but he is and told us to rather give place to wrath. (Him) Even Joseph could testify to my teaching because after his brothers did evil to him, this is what the scriptures says in Genesis 50:15-19: When Joseph brothers saw that their father was dead, they said, perhaps Joseph will hate us, and may actually repay us for all the evil which we did to him. So they sent messengers to Joseph, saying, thus you shall say to Joseph: I beg you, please forgive the trespasses of your brothers and their sin; for they did evil to you. Now, please forgive the trespass of the servants of the God of your father. And Joseph wept when they spoke to him. Then his brothers also went and fell down before his face, and they said, behold we are your servants. Joseph said to them, do not be afraid, for am I in the place of God? As you can see in the scriptures, Joseph knew within himself that he would’ve been putting himself in the place of God if he had repaid his brothers for what they had done. But my favorite verse is verse number 20 when he said: You meant evil against me; but God meant it for good, in order to bring it about as it is this day, to save many people alive. Sometimes people may think they’re hurting you but in reality they’re doing you some good because whatever they’re dishing out then God can use it to strengthen you and make you a better person. I have been hurt, betrayed, heartbroken, lied on, cheated on, talked about, and I’ve also did it to others but the Lord used all of those things and worked it together for my good by washing me and cleasing me with his blood in order to teach his people through me and to save many people alive. Give it all to God and let the Lord repay!!!!!!
For I have come to set a man against his father, a daughter against her Mother, and a daughter-in-law against her Mother-in-law, and a man’s enemies will be those if his own household. (Matthew 10:35-36) I can relate to these verses all to well and testify that the scriptures are indeed true because everybody can relate to family drama including myself, and it all started from the very beginning with Cain and Abel, Esau and Jacob, Moses, Aaron, and Miriam, Joseph and his brothers and etc. I was born into the world innocent not having the knowledge of good or evil, nor did I have the privilege to tell God how I wanted to look or be. Matter of fact, God never given any human the privilege to tell him anything of that nature but I was just born, and absolutely beautiful from birth and my parents loved me dearly Especially my dad because I am his only daughter and was born on his birthday. I have a sister who is five years older than I am and we share the same Mother but not the same Dad. Ten years after I was born, my youngest brother came along and him and I both share the same Mom and Dad but while I was growing up, I was hated so much by my sister and for years I never understood why because out of the three of us I was the worse; I went to the Youth Detention Center at the age of 15, I went to Charter Winds Hospital at the age of 16, I was raped at 17, I was rebellious, promiscous, and went to prison at the age of 23. We was poor, living in the projects, and because my sister was much older than I was, she was able to get a job and provide for herself buying herself nice things such as clothes while I went to school in rags because I really didn’t have any clothes to wear and use to had to beg her to wear hers. I lived in shame and was absolutely skinny back in those days being picked on continuously. But out of all the things that my sister had going for her, jealousy still roared from within her because my father loved me and was there for me, but her Dad was never there for her and he barely came around and that was the reason why she did not like me. I just thought it was so amazing that a person can have everything but yet still can become jealous. She hated the way that I looked, my skin complexion, she just hated everything about me and she felt that I was favored more when I wasn’t because my younger brother was favored more because he’s my Mother’s only son. Jealousy is a trait that nobody should ever want because out of it my sister drew a knife on me when she was only a teenager wanting to kill me, but my Dad intervened by jumping in between us and he overpowered her causing her to cut all five of her fingers. Jealousy can be deadly, and in some cases it did lead to murder or other things; Cain killed his brother Abel, Aaron and Miriam spoke against Moses, Joseph brothers sold him into slavery, and David became a fugitive by running from his son Absalom and the list goes on. But through my poverty, imprisonment, reproaches, failures, and my short comings, I never not once hated my sister for it, and nor did I blame her for the times that she dogged me and cursed me out for no apparent reason because inspite of myself, all that I’ve done, and all that i ever went through, the Lord chose me. I was considered foolish, crazy, and completely out of my mind but glory be to God that he has chosen the foolish things of this world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are. (1 Corinthians 27:-28) Today my sister and I are both in our fourties and Believe it or not the anger, bitterness, and the jealousy still roars within her until this very day and she often brings up the past but I love her inspie of, but just refuse to entertain it. Sometimes you just have to love a person from a distant, keep them lifted in prayer and allow God to deal with them including family.
Marriage is a beautiful thing because it symbolizes the covenant relationship that God has with his people. In the New testament Paul encourages husband’s to love their wives just as Christ also loved the church and gave himself for her, that he might sanctify and cleanse her with the washing of water by the word, that he might present her to himself a glorious church, not having spot or wrinkle or any such thing, but that she should be holy and without blemish. (Ephesians 5:25-27) The key word that stands out in this verse is: HOLY; now we know that God created Adam and Eve and then afterwards blessed them by telling them to be fruitful and multiply (Genesis 1:28) which also tells me that God created sex as a gift to be enjoyed between husband and wife in their union but because of the wickedness and moral corruption in today’s world, many couples are now inviting others to join them in their marriage bed which is defiling it. Not only that but certain sexual acts that are being done between husband and wives are defiling it as well and I will tell you how. Yes the word of God says that marriage is honorable among all, and the bed undefiled; but fornicators and adulterers will be judged. (Hebrew 13:4) But many people think just because they’re married, they can have any type of sex that they want to including oral and anal sex and think it’s honorable and pure in the sight of God but it’s not. You can disagree all you want to but I only write what God places in my heart and therefore I will be teaching you today. In the book of Deuteronomy 20:17-18 it reads: But you shall utterly destroy them: the Hittite and the Amorite and the Canaanite and the Perizzite and the Hevite and the Jebusite, just as the Lord your God has commanded you, lest they teach you to do according to all the abominations which they have done for their gods, and you sin against the Lord your God. These nation’s were practicing sodomy and prostitution (including male prostitution) during their religious rituals; and orgies, fornication, homosexuality, oral and anal sex was also being performed as they were worshipping and honoring their gods baal and asherah. A practice that the children of Israel eventually gave into ( Ezekiel 16:15-26, Ezekiel 16:44-52) but it was the main reason why God warned them to remove these nations completely from the land in the first place. So by performing these type of sex acts, you’re not honoring God as you think you are but instead you’re honoring and worshipping the gods baal and asherah which are demons, and you’re also condoning the heathen practices of the Canaanites, Hittites, Hevites, Jebusites, Amorites, and the Perizzites, which God is not pleased because the penis was created to penetrate the vagina, not the mouth or the rectum and vice versa, nor was we meant to be choked, tied up, hand cuffed, urinated on, spit upon, slapped or beaten during sex. And you may be saying that you’re going to do whatever it takes to please your husband or your wife but even by doing those things some of your husbands are still texting other women, coming home late, cheating on you, flirting on the job, and telling lies about his whereabouts, and so are some of the wives. It’s a demonic and occult practice which makes you no different from a devil worshipper, so start keeping the marriage bed pure and begin honoring God even in your sex life.
When I had taken a three month break from writing, I didn’t go into details as to what was really going on with me and why I remained silent for that period of time until I received a prophetic word from the Lord about two weeks ago that I needed to share my testimony about the warfare that I was dealing with in my mind. That was a very stressful time for me and I was feeling like I just wanted God to end it all, and to call me home to heaven to be with him but that wasn’t his plan for me right now because he wanted me to trust him and to learn how to fight spiritually in order to live a victorious life. Everything that I’m about to tell you will sound so unreal, but if anybody think that demons aren’t real and that HELL isn’t real is sadly mistaken because they are, and they have manifested themselves to me on numerous occasions. When I had finally given up sex along with many other things that I was doing and rededicated my life back to Christ two years ago, that’s when the demonic attacks began. Demons started bringing up things about what I had done in my past but there was only one particular thought that they harassed me with continually, a thought that I will not reveal. And because I paid attention to them, I became disgusted with myself and believing their lies instead of standing firm on God’s word and believing what the word of God said about me which says: Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new. ( 2 Corinthians 5:17) By continuously listening to them, I had unaware given the demons a foothold and they begin building strongholds in my mind. A spiritual stronghold is an incorrect thinking pattern that molds itself into our way of thinking and have the capability to affect a person feelings, how they respond to various situations in life, and they play a large role in our spiritual freedom. The demons purpose was to keep me trapped in bondage, making me a prisoner in my own mind to where I started feeling like there was no way out. They were trying to convince me that I was the person that they painted me to be in my mind and because i had given them a foothold, they unleashed their evil and tormented me day and night because I had many sleepless nights and they even came into my dreams to attack me while I was asleep by touching me in a sexual way knowing that I was vulnerable by being in an unconscious state. They wanted my flesh to get aroused because their aim was for me to relapse back into sin because they knew that I once had a problem with masturbation in the past, back in 2005 when I opened that door through phone sex, but not once did I relapse or give in to that sin. I could feel those strongholds in my mind even while being awake and they were very painful and it felt like a serpent was crawling and moving around in my head and that is no lie; PEOPLE DEMONS ARE REAL!!!!!! I recited every prayer that I Googled that you could think of but it seemed like nothing was working, and I was so unhappy that i wanted to die. I couldn’t understand why I was going through those things and why I was only being attacked with that one particular thought when I had done many other things throughout my lifetime. For a minute I thought that somebody had cast a spell on me by using witchcraft until I remembered that those spirits were familiar spirits because I had this same problem back in the early 2000’s. Back then a prophetess came to me and told me that God said that I needed to pull down those strongholds but because I was very young and immature in christ, I didn’t understand what she was talking about. But today being mature and fully aware now, I know exactly what she meant. In 2 Corinthians 10:3-6 it reads: For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, and punishing every disobedience when your obedience is fulfilled. Everything that Satan and his demons tried to make me believe in my mind, I started fighting back with the word of God and quoting scriptures about what thou says the Lord, and always starting it off by saying: It Is Written!!! I am very careful now about what I think about, watch on television, read, and entertain so that I won’t open any more doors for the devil. And I tune in every morning faithfully to listen to sermons on Facebook live, and have became stengthened even more through the Man and woman of God and my faith also has became stronger. The more that I fought back spiritually, the more that I felt those stongholds becoming weaker and weaker by the day. They still try to harass me every now and then but it’s nothing like it use to be because I put on the whole armor of God everyday, I know who I am in Christ Jesus and know who I belong to and know that I am more than a conquer through Him who loves me; therefore if the Son makes you free, you shall be free indeed……( John 8:36)
Whenever we decide to take a vacation, we pack our bags and luggage’s filling them with clothes and different items that we will need while being away. And depending on how much we’re taking with us, the luggage can become so full and heavy that we would need carts to help us to bear the burden because by carrying them ourselves it could somehow effect us in some way. Even with the human bodies as we already know that by weighing a certain amount and being overweight can cause serious health problems, and also carrying around spiritual weights and baggages are just as bad because it can bring a person’s whole life down to ruins, that it’s the very reason why some relationships and marriages have failed because people have brought in luggage’s from other bad relationships or from their past that were filled with unforgiveness, anger, insecurities, rejection, sexual, physical, mental, verbal abuse, betrayal, and etc. But instead of some of us turning to God so that he can deal with our issues and to give us his yoke to bear, we instead choose to harbor those things inside and sometimes for years which eventually weighs us down causing us much misery and distress because the weight of those things are too heavy. Then you go into relationships bound and expecting your mate or your spouse to bring you comfort and relief when they may not know what’s going on with you because you never talked about your past experiences or opened up to them. And even if you have opened up to them you’re still angry because you have allowed those weights to take root within you. You’re blaming them for what others have done and accusing them of everybody; if they leave out the house to go somewhere you think they’re cheating when they’re probably not; you’re accusing them of this person and that person and if you see a beautiful woman or a nice looking man then you become offended all because of your insecurities. God could never send you a good man or woman because your weights would surpress them and push them away and that’s the reason why some of you are single today. In the book of Hebrews it reads: Therefore we also, since we are surrounded by so great cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us.(Hebrews 12:1-2) Whether some of you realize this or not but sin itself is nothing but heavy weight, a deadly one at that!!! It will strain and crush the very life out of you and when I was living in it I was extremely heavy and my life was a living hell because God made it that way until I returned back to him. Every sin that I was living in brought about a different weight that I became so sick of myself and told God that I missed the relationship that him and I once had and that I wanted it back. And because God knows the heart, he knew that I was sincere and restored our relationship and I never looked back again. I am no longer bound, nor do I feel heaviness in my spirit because I have taken his yoke upon me and follow him sincerely; I have been freed from my past, freed from sins, and freed from weights.
It’s been three whole months since I’ve written an article but during that time of being on break I’ve been meditating, working, resting, seeking, and waiting for the Lord to give me new insight, new revelation, and to take me into a new direction with my writing because lately I’ve been observing some things that needed to be addressed. Things that are making me feel very uncomfortable and it angers me to see the downward spiral and the condition of my people. Now I may get a lot of backlash for all that I’m about to say but if I offend anybody then hopefully you’ll get mad enough to change, and what I’m about to say doesn’t apply to every black person because I myself am a black woman who have accomplished a lot compared to how I use to be. And there are many others, my black brothers and sisters who are successful and doing very well for themselves; entrepreneurs, professors, athletes, along with those who are giving back to the community who’ve reached the height of their success and are making a difference in the times that we’re living in. Anyone who puts forth the effort will see that hard work eventually pays off and that should be the mindset of many but sadly it’s not. Women (Not all) who are living in public housing have nothing better to do with their lives but are idle and attracting men who are just like them with no jobs, no skills, and nothing to offer. There’s nothing wrong with living in public housing as long as you’re working or going back to school to get a degree to better yourselves and to provide a better living environment for you and your children but instead, too many women are so desperate for love that they’re allowing their boyfriends and his friends to hang out at her house or they’re standing around in the breezeways firing up blunts, using all kind of profanity not caring if an elderly person or children are standing nearby. They’re standing all around the apartment complexes making the entire neighborhood look so bad and then wonder why the police’s are always in the area keeping a close eye on them. Instead of some of you wanting to work and make a living the right way, you’ll rather sell drugs in the community or wait until it gets dark to break into somebody’s house to rob and kill them for all that they’ve worked for and your poor excuse for your actions is this: My children gotta eat. Well if your children gotta eat then go to work! They can’t eat if you’re locked up, they can’t eat if you’re shot up and laying in a hospital bed all because you were foolish and broke into the wrong house, and they can’t eat if you’re dead. Your conversations are futile and your head is so empty that you have no wisdom to offer the younger generation who are growing up watching you. Some of you are a poor excuse for being a black man with your pants sagging all the way down to your ankles, you’re spitting everywhere, quick to throw up your middle finger, exposing your true ignorance and then get offended when people of other races don’t want you walking around in their neighborhoods and I don’t blame them because I don’t want you walking around in mines. And if you’re applying for jobs but not getting hired then it’s probably because you’re going on interviews talking and dressing like you’re on the streets, and I’m not putting down my race but some of you need to do better than what you’re doing. Black lives won’t matter until you first start making your own life matter by loving and respecting yourself, and then you’ll learn how to love and respect the next black man instead of killing one another.